Changes

The summer has come to a close and the shorter days are here.

Making the most of the dry and bright weather is never going to be more important than over the autumn and winter.

Gloomy, rainy, foggy and all the other depressing weather variations there are it forces to stay inside and struggle to entertain ourselves. If you have read my other posts you will be aware of how much I love my reading. For me the darker and gloomier weather makes me indulge into my books and forget the world.

Not only is the weather and season changing but also a new car and a new job which is offering opportunities for me in my career and with it new hope for myself and my future. I am excited for the new chapter in my life.

A lot can happen all at once for a neurotypical person it can be overwhelming but for a neurodivergent 8-9 times out of 10 it simply far too much and overwhelming doesn’t cover it. I gave managed to deal with the all the situations I have covered above that all happened in a space of less than a month. It’s also all the paperwork involved that goes alongside it that can be the cause of most of the stress than actually finding a new car or job.

On the upside I have managed to sort it out and deal with it eventually.

New job starts within a few days. Probably not the best time of the year to start a new job but hey the opportunity was there and I had to take it because who knows how long I would have to wait for another like I have been offered to come up. The opportunities that are they are happy to provide is fantastic and yes I nervous and a little scared but like I said before how far down the road would the next opportunity be. The direction I want to go with my career this is the step I need to take.

Winter period has provided clarity in every sense of my life for me as I have taken the time to sit in the quiet, no music, no talking and no TV just me, my thoughts and feelings and those many times of doing that has made me clarify the direction I want to be going in. I believe absolutely needs to sit in their own company for a period of at some in silence. I genuinely feel it helps with changes that happen in each and every person’s life for them to mentally and emotionally come to understand what has happened and to process their thoughts and feelings towards things, people and themselves. Neurodivergent need a period of time like this on a daily basis, neurotypical not necessarily daily but do benefit from the alone and quiet time just maybe not on the same scale as neurotypical but it is vital for everyone to process what is going on inside themselves for them to understand how they want to behave towards the outside world, other people and their environment.

For me as someone with Asperger Syndrome I need to daily take time in silence on my sofa or lying in my bed to process the day. Especially with my new job coming up I am feeling anxious and nervous because I will be in a new environment working with people I do not know so, for me I know I need to calm myself down and tell myself it will be alright, this is easier said than done, but I know the first month or so is going to a lot to process. Prior me starting my new job and every morning for a while I need to sit quietly to myself think how I want to approach the day, how I react to other people, colleagues and patients and how it will affect me as a person. As an Asperger sufferer I can be quite short with my answers and it can come across as rude and impatient which can then make other people react towards me in a way I don’t like and in the long run nor do they. Personally time to myself with no noise or distractions can allow me to think and process how I want to approach the day which will benefit me in the long run for the better and with a new job and environment it has never been more necessary for me sit and contemplate my approach towards this.